Not to be old-fashioned but

Yes, ma’am, I have a past
I was young and overly optimistic
that first love or young love
would be forever.

Yes, ma’am, I have grown up
I have done right by biological crafting,
I mean, what kind of man would I be
if I had done anything less?

Yes, ma’am, I’m walking on the outside
Though, I know you have fast reflexes
and not to be old-fashioned but
can we lay out some promises?

No, ma’am, I don’t intend on dying
but you never know when dire circumstances
come crawling and I want you
to be taken care of
if the battle takes me down with it.

Yes, ma’am, I’ll eat more than a caesar salad
I can wait for a lavish ceremony
and even when the whole room needs me
I’ll find my way to you.

In the form of paper or a painting
or a bundle of red balloons.

— yiqi 26 March 2022 8:39 pm

This poem was inspired by the film A Journal for Jordan (Denzel Washington, 2021).

Pic cred: Amazon

Bon Voyage, Monsieur Ryan

Don’t cough, what bright spotlight through this here window pane.
It is the tweet and Matt Ryan is no longer the sun.
Go fly, fair son, and be still with the plentifully stunned.

Go forth, go forth, wherever you will,
Unwind stiff muscles and refute all the shame
Or if now be not a good time to peel off game gloves
Then I’ll no longer dream of playing for an ornithologist.

~!~

The Atlanta Falcons have announced that their quarterback for more than a decade is stripping off the humidity of the south’s red, black, and white for mid-western climes in hues of white and blue.  No longer a predatory bird will Matt Ryan be; instead, he shall become a mammal — a colt.  Even though his football days, weeks, months, and years in Atlanta can coldly be summarized as a refrain of so-close-and-yet-so-far, and it was often painful to watch the Falcons play in the last several years, the good times were really good, weren’t they?

I’ll treasure always the picture of the pig he drew me when he was a rookie.

PS. Yes, there is a reason why the opening of the entry sounds familiar.

So That’s why they call it a bundle of joy

I saw one today and it saw me.  By “it,” I mean a human child referred to as “a bundle of joy.”

I had just spent a couple of hours catching up with a friend I haven’t seen in several years.  The weather was excellent, I felt “normal” again, like myself again.  It’s become subjective whether or not there is such a thing as “normalcy” anymore, or at the very least, it’s become much harder to depend on predictability in day-to-day life.  Yet, for a few hours on a Saturday, doing what I love doing (reading and writing at a non-Starbux coffee shop) coupled with good conversation, I was able to slip back into my preferred “default” self.  Not the self of pessimistic solitude, but that of intellectual fulfillment and ease.

After my friend and I parted ways, I had a moment with a stranger when I was walking to my car.  I noticed a motorist reversing and going the wrong way out of the parking lot, and vocalized to no one in particular, “You’re going the way, you’re going the wrong way.”

This stranger, who was sitting by a staircase and taking a smoke break, had heard me and remarked, “Oh, they don’t care, they do it all the time.”  I trotted over and inquired how many Starbux products could he buy if he had a dollar for every time he saw someone exiting incorrectly the parking lot.  A very short chat was had.  I bid him a good day and proceeded to my car.  I took the usual route back to my bachelor pad, and as I approached an intersection flanked by restaurants and other businesses not half a mile from the coffee shop, I happened to look left outside of the driver side window.

Initially, I didn’t focus on any one person having lunch on the patio…until my eyes landed upon her.  This small human with a head of brown curls, and who clearly had just learned how to stand (and probably walk) within recent weeks, was looking and pointing at me.  She was giggling too.  I whipped my head back towards the windshield to see if the line of cars in front of me had moved or not — it hadn’t.  I returned my gaze to where the little girl was standing, and her face was oozing with cheerfulness.  I waved, her dad waved, she waved, and then her mom waved…and then the cars in front of me started to move.

I have a Mashimaro sticker on the driver side door, maybe she was mesmerized by its iridescence.  Maybe she liked my sunglasses.  I have no idea why she singled me out (and from the distance of 1.5 car-lengths no less), but at least now I know why anyone would call a baby, an infant, or a young child “a bundle of joy.”  Inexplicably, I felt honored to have caught the attention of a vessel of soft tissue, blood, bones, muscle, nerve endings, tendons, and unbridled curiosity.

Steal I Will Be By Your Side

I felt like translating a couple more Mandarin-Chinese pop songs when I was flossing my teeth tonight.

The first song is called “偷” (Tou/Steal) by 女孩與機器人 (Nu Hai Yu Ji Qi Ren/The Girl and the Robots).  One could interpret “偷” as “thief” because “steal” and “thief” share that same character.  I’m going with “Steal.”  It has some Kate Bush vibes.

~!~

The next song is called “我會在你身邊” (Wo Huei Zai Ni Sheng Bian/I Will By Your Side) by 朱俐靜 (Miu Chu) and 畢書盡 (Bii).

Technically, It’s True — I Could End You

Today’s deep thought brought to you by flossing after dinner.

As often as we humans inseminate, cultivate, facilitate, propagate, maintain, resuscitate, elongate, and mandate the spark and expansion of life, we are also one motion away from being (in)voluntarily another person or creature’s harbinger of death.  There isn’t a lone Grim Reaper; there are many and we all have the potential to (un)intentionally participate in the non-existence of another biological entity — and I don’t mean in instances of roadkill, the application of insecticides, or lethal self-defense.

When you disregard inclement weather, cardiac malfunction, being attacked by large land mammals or marine animals, and one’s own unwise decisions (out of desperation or sheer idiocy), what remains?  Somebody meets an untimely end because of someone else’s negligence, premeditation, or the most potent, so-not-funny dark comedy of errors.

If you can die because of another person’s behavior (with or without a series of very unwanted events), someone else can also die because of your behavior (with or without a series of very unwanted events).  Most of us wouldn’t purposefully be the unwitting enablers of a stranger’s manner of expiration, right?  Being an “ethical” and efficient vigilante is cost-prohibitive unless you’re Batman and socially isolating even if you were Batman (you shouldn’t let too many people know about your secret identity).

Is it bewildering that on the surface, ideating, preparing, and conjuring the beginning and continuation of a presence requires much more focused intent, whereas, ushering in an absence doesn’t even need your (immediate) awareness of it?  I think not.  The butterfly effect of your actions applies to both growth and decomposition.  The conversation you had with that electrician could be one or five degrees removed from his co-producing an heir.  At the same time, that conversation could be one or five degrees removed from his deviating from his post-work routine, thus, putting him in the wrong place at the wrong time.

We all have this non-gift within us.  How would any of us know that we haven’t already dabbled in such morbidity?  I guess we’re all in a young adult fantasy novel whether we like it or not.

PS.  Can you imagine Minority Report having a sequel where people can be prosecuted for being the initation point of a person’s death?  Would law-abiding citizens have to purchase “initiation point immunity” so that if something they say or do ever leads to someone’s loss of life, they can’t be arrested, charged, or prosecuted?  Maybe different states would have their own threshold of degrees-removed that must not be exceeded in order for a conviction to be won.

Original pic cred: Mathieu Stern @mathieustern, Timothy Dykes @timothycdykes, unsplash